A new week

Well, I made it thru the weekend and it seems I'm still in one piece.
That was probably one of the roughest 3 days I've had in my memories. I spent the weekend trying to keep busy, and thru it all nothing worked. Everything I thought of reminded me of the very things I was trying to block out ( not forget ) and it all came to a head on Sunday when I took the Vette out for a drive.

I set the nav to a specific endpoint, but didn't follow its suggestions. When it told me a turn was coming, I'd look, and decide then if it was the right direction. In doing so, I found some incredible little back roads that wound thru farmlands and valleys and small towns in my area. I'd go 10-15 minutes before I'd see another car at times and only saw 1 car that had a light bar on the roof the whole trip that lasted 4+ hours.

The destination was a goal, but NOT the final outcome. It felt good to get the car out and drive without purpose or a time limit. What was normally a 45 minute drive turned into almost 2 hours. It gave me time to think, as I do some of my best thinking while I'm on a drive. I had the time to think about the choices I've made, the ones I want to make, and understanding not only the result of those choices, but the ramifications of them.
I ended up in Ohiophyle State park just past Frank Loyd Wright's Fallingwater masterpiece. I still have yet to go IN the place, but I've been on the grounds.
I spent about 2 hours walking around Ohiophyle, watching the rapids, the people kayaking, fishing and hiking thru the area. It's beautiful there any time of year but fall is the best even if the leaves were all but fallen by the time this weekend came. There are great trails to bike or walk that have some great scenery. There are all kinds of natural trails along the river to hike and get some excercise. I mainly just was hanging out taking it all in. Went to another area called "Cucumber Falls" and saw some great views there. The area has changed alot since I was a kid, but most of the BIG things haven't.

I took a different route home and found more great roads.
Thru it all... with all the intent of keeping things OUT of my mind, it just solidified my resolve and reminded me that teh passenger seat was empty, and that the person I wanted to share this all with was very far away ( further than usual ) and was doing the same as me in a way... and as it turned out, we were doing the same thing... wishing the other was there to share what they were experiencing. Our minds are WAY too much alike at times...

So... the week has started and while nothing's really "changed" I DO feel things are different, and that's not a bad thing. I don't know what the coming days,weeks or months have in store, but I'm not worried about that right now. I'm not going to rush things and either of us make hasty decisions. Yes, it's not easy... but nothing worth the struggle is ever easy. And I STILL know it's worth every minute of whatever I have to go thru.

Check back tonight for some pictures