Weekend at hand

Here it is.... Another weekend us now in full swing for most of us on the "right coast" and the rest are catching up quick.
Work's been keeping my quite busy and shows no sign of letting up. My workaholic days are behind me, even if my current schedule doesn't relect it. Once the weather breaks and cars start staying clean I'll be working alot less than I am... I guess more like a "normal" person would be working.
The days all kinda bleed together for me, and maybe mentally it's starting to show. I don't really look forward to the weekends right now, and it's not because I dread them, but more to the point that I don't even realize that they are happening. We had a member of the drawing room quit and today was his last day. 4 of the 6 of us went out for "lunch" and were gone quite a long time, so it was just 2 of us holding down the fort.
Now that we're down a man, I see things getting worse before they get better. Everyone is going to feel more and more pressure to get teh job done and with less time and less manpower... well something's got to give.
Today... that thing that gave was my good mood I guess. I was doing GREAT today thanks to a great person keeping my brain entertained with various things, but for some reason I just got really ... well I don't know what the word would be.... maybe bummed or blah... and hated feeling that way. I've been doing so well, and while I know that no one stays in a great mood 24/7, I have been enjoying my days in the sunshine. The last thing I wanted to do was to let someone else take the brunt of it and make them assume that something they did was the cause... far from it.
I thought about somethings that have been sitting in the back of my mind for a while now and while some was trivial ( car stuff... ) , others were closer to my heart or soul. Things that you don't share with anyone, other than that little voice in your heart that guides you, albeit sometimes down the wrong path, and confirms what you know is true by proving it.
Now, that might not make much sense to some, and maybe to many that know me.
I've got some upcoming events that I need to start preparing for, both physically, mentally, and financially.. I'm wanting to travel some if certain things play out and that will take some planning and thought. The Autocrossing will start it's path to nationals again and I need to be ready for that, and so does the car.
Hard to believe that I'm less than 2 months from the 1st event and I've not got one thing ready on the car... I need to get some other people on board with some ideas, and also I have a new responsibility to tend to there so I have alot to get going...

My personal life.... well that is simple and yet at the same time complicated. Simple in that I know the basics of what I want and what I can and can't expect, or hope for. Complicated on the hows, ifs and whens of what can and might come to fruition. Time isn't my enemy like I thought it was and I find a great deal of comfort in knowing that for once... I don't care how long it will take, or even caring on the details...

Either it will work out in the end... or it won't. At the end of the day, I'll know that I just didn't sit on the sidelines and watch my life pass by me. I'll have lived it and I can look back and say that at least I tried and took a chance. I think we all are looking for that... someone to take a chance on us, and someone to take that same chance on.