Catching up

With how frequently I was posting the past 2 weeks, it feels like it's been forever since I last written anything. What's funny is, I've been writing, but not to here... so I've been writing just as much but it's been pointed in different directions.

Work has been keeping not only busy, but mentally drained. We've got a BIG project going thru the office and we're all working extra hours, but some are working more extra hours than others. Getting in the office @ 4:30 AM ( or 5AM ) and not leaving until at least 7PM each night takes its toll on the body, mind and soul. Between looming construction deadlines, Pending personell changes and just the everyday BS that we go thru here... well it really wears on a person at times.

Lots of other "personal" stuff have been going on behind the scenes. Some I can share, others I'm not ready to just yet. Nothing bad, that's for sure... :)
So here I am working and I'm way too far away from where I WANT TO be. It's that helpless feeling we all get from time to time when you want to be there for someone that means soo much to you and you can't. It sucks. They know I'm there in spirit and that my thoughts are always there and wishing things go smoothly, but you still WANT to be that shoulder to lean on, or that person to make sure they're getting plenty of rest, plenty to eat, drink... keep them comfortable...

I've had all kinds of thoughts in my head that I've either wanted to get out, express or just bounce off my own sounding board ( not that I enjoy hearing myself talk ... ) and see what really comes out. We always have these thoughts and feelings that we're not quite sure just what they all mean. Are they just "heat of the moment" kind of feelings that change quickly once you step away from the situation for a while? Are they just manifestations of our own fears, or desires? The ones that are constantly pushing and pulling at us to either say something, or keep them close to our chests. THOSE are the ones that always get us in trouble.
We say things we think we feel, right or wrong, and we get in way over our heads. Our hearts tell us that we NEED to say these things, or think these things. Sometimes.... we DO... others, things are best left for another time.
I'm still a firm believer in NOT living by the whole "some things are better left unsaid" thing. It's not true.
If you want to tell someone something... you should. Just pick the right time.
Not sure where that all came from, but I was speaking my mind...