Grumpy much?

Well, it was bound to happen...

For the past few months I've been in an overall GREAT mood, and for the first time since then... I find myself really grumpy / irritable / down. It's been a while and I guess nothing great lasts forever.
That's not to say it's a sign of things to come, but more that for whatever reason unknown to me, I am not a happy camper. There's various reasons contributing to it I'm sure... my travelling companion is travelling... and not with me this time. I miss that alot.
Today would've been mom's 58th Birthday and like everyone around here, I miss her very much. Hard to believe it's been almost 4 years now.
Maybe part of it is mainly just that... Mom was always a very influential and supportive person in my life and I've not really had that around to bounce things off of. While we all strive to be our own persons and not let our parents choose what life we live, I think we invariably do things with the thought of.. "what would they think about this..?"
I wonder what she would think of the person I've become. The changes in my life I've made since she passed. The choices I've made, the friends I've made, the work I do, even what I do for fun.
Mom was always into much of the same things as me. Loved cars, music, art, racing... so I would hope she'd be happy for me.
If there IS something beyond this life for us all, I hope she's having a big party there with other relatives and friends we've lost. I hope she's looking on and is happy and content with how things are.

So, I'm grumpy today. I'm in a funk, the blues, the blahs... whatever. I wish things were easy, but they are what they are, and we all have to make the best of what we have in front of us.
I guess it beats the alternative.