Been a while...

Well, it's been a while since I posted.... mainly because much of what has been on my mind has been a bit personal and not something I can really explain or put into words here.
Been a series of ups and downs, like everything that life dishes out to us. In time, I know that everything that lies before me will sort itself out in some way... either one way, or the other. That's all I guess we can really hope for.
We have things in our lives that we want, or hope for, or wish for... wishing is great, but it really can't get you anywhere. HOPE... can be a good catlyst for making things you want to happen become reality. Hope can be a spark to your imagination's engine. Hope can also set you up for a fall... but that's the chance you take when you put yourself out there.

I've had alot of goals I've set for myself. I am terrible at it. I am fine as long as I don't set a timeframe to meeting those goals. I get stressed soon after and then next thing you know, I'm in a bad mood. Not good.

Work has been very crazy... quite a bit going on around the office. Some great, some not so...

Racing is kicking in to high gear.. Leaving for Indiana this weekend... Ohio next weekend... and back around here for local events soon after.

Hope things smooth out overall. I know that in the end... what's best for each situation will be chosen... that's all there is .

Garage cleaning and with it,, the past

So I've decided that I want to be able to park a car ( not yet determined what ...) in the garage by this fall / winter. In doing so, I'm forced to revisit much of my past youth since 90% of this is all stuff I had packed away for going on 10 - 15 years.
I found old pictures of me and people from my past and present. I found paystubs from my 1ts jobs... I found old magazines, and paperwork from old cars I owned.

I had one box that had alot of "old baggage" that I needed to go thru. Some I kept, but most got tossed. Guess the past truly is hard to let go of.

So.... I've got a good 3 or 4 weekends left in the garage before I can think about moving anything in there. Lots of boxes to go thru but the tough ones are now just about gone I think.

Grumpy much?

Well, it was bound to happen...

For the past few months I've been in an overall GREAT mood, and for the first time since then... I find myself really grumpy / irritable / down. It's been a while and I guess nothing great lasts forever.
That's not to say it's a sign of things to come, but more that for whatever reason unknown to me, I am not a happy camper. There's various reasons contributing to it I'm sure... my travelling companion is travelling... and not with me this time. I miss that alot.
Today would've been mom's 58th Birthday and like everyone around here, I miss her very much. Hard to believe it's been almost 4 years now.
Maybe part of it is mainly just that... Mom was always a very influential and supportive person in my life and I've not really had that around to bounce things off of. While we all strive to be our own persons and not let our parents choose what life we live, I think we invariably do things with the thought of.. "what would they think about this..?"
I wonder what she would think of the person I've become. The changes in my life I've made since she passed. The choices I've made, the friends I've made, the work I do, even what I do for fun.
Mom was always into much of the same things as me. Loved cars, music, art, racing... so I would hope she'd be happy for me.
If there IS something beyond this life for us all, I hope she's having a big party there with other relatives and friends we've lost. I hope she's looking on and is happy and content with how things are.

So, I'm grumpy today. I'm in a funk, the blues, the blahs... whatever. I wish things were easy, but they are what they are, and we all have to make the best of what we have in front of us.
I guess it beats the alternative.