Inner voice, inner demon, inner peace

When you're talking to a friend about problems you're having... whether it's love, life, work, or whatever... you always find one of them sooner or later saying "trust your inner voice".. If you got voices in your head, don't you think you've got bigger issues??

In all seriousness.. I find myself sometimes struggling with those very voices. You KNOW they are usually right, or at least, more right than you are, and yet I have rarely gone ahead and listened to them. Instead of trusting my gut, and doing what needed to be done, I always just follow my heart. My heart is a moron at times and doesn't see the big picture every now and then.

When we want something...sooo bad, we tend to rationalize with ourselves ( yes... that voice is the one we argue with ) and convince ourselves that what we want and what we need are one in the same. That just becuase we feel we deserve something that we should have it.. consequences be damned. It's not that simple... I know it.. we all do.. we do it anyway, becuase we tell ourselves it's the right thing, or the acceptable thing to do.

Usually, the root of the struggle comes from our past. Whether it's past mistakes, missed chances, hopes and dreams we strive to make real, or just "I want that...", it always comes back to haunt us. Those inner demons nag at us, eat at our subconscious minds and sabotage what we do in the here and now.

Now, I'm not saying that those demons we all have are evil, but we're always afraid of repeating a past bad time. Maybe it's all in our minds, but it's VERY REAL in that mind and we have to deal with it. Either we confront those ones head on, or we hide from them, or we pick and choose our battles and take things as they come.

My worst demon is no less important than yours.. and no less scary... to ME. It's important that we understand that when someone talks to you about their problem. It's hard for them to deal with it as it is, and the last thing they need is to have you trivailize it.

So... that brings me to inner peace... or the search for it.

As we grow up, we're searching for our own identity, sometimes finding that we're not the person that we thought we wanted to be. Making matters worse is that when you get older and have that circle of friends that KNOW you, it's hard to change. They expect you to be a certain way, and in that way, it's constricting and stunts your growth as a person.
Time goes on and you find your path, and yet still struggle for finding that place of serenity or neutrality that you can just BE and not be judged, be scrutinized, or otherwise feel you have to be "that person". Finding that place can be as duanting as finding your path or purpose in life. It's there.... you just have to open your eyes and you heart to find it.
What we do with our time here is more important than any rewards, money, fame or acknowledgment that we can get. Making yourself happy... truly happy, is the name of the game. Whether it's your career, love, hobbies, etc... YOU control your own destiny and fortune. Maybe in the grand scheme our paths are written... I dunno.
We're all connected whether we realize it or not. The longer you stay in this world, you realize how small it really is.

Be happy... find that place in your soul where you're at peace.
Be happy... Don't let things in life that cause 'drama' rattle you to the point where you want to give in.

Maybe it's all gibberish...