This is the final blog entry here. It's run it's course and it's time to close this chapter of my life out. This weekend proved to be exactly what I feared, but wouldn't admit to myself that was a likely outcome. There was pretty much only one person even following things here, and that has come and gone.
Thanks for listening over the past 3 1/2 years or so.
In time these posts will be removed but for now I'm just walking away.
May the paths you all chose in this life be worth the journey.
Monday, February 1, 2010
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Upcoming weekend
So, it's a cold and snowy week here in the northeast, and while the fun cars are pretty much tucked away for the winter, we still have things to talk about.
1) All the activity in Daytona means 1 thing... racing is back again! Between the Motorcycles, NASCAR's various events and the 24 Hours of Daytona, there's just about any kind of racing for someone to enjoy. This weekend is the 24hr race, and to ME, that means it won't be long until we all get to go back outside and play.
2) This is 2010, but the local region's end-of-season awards banquet is coming up this weekend. Kim is coming into town to join me in the festivities. This is the 1st time I'm attending where I'm actually going to be recieving something. I won a tropy for my class this year. I even came very close to being in the top 10 in the points chase ( ended up in 13th ).
This is all very alien to me. I'm not one that really has ever pushed to be good at anything outside of work. I've tried to NOT marginalize my efforts and enjoy what few accolades or 'atta-boys' that I've gotten this past year. To me,a win isn't a win just because you took 1st. If you take 1st and there's little or NO competition to run against, there's not much to say "yay me" about. Now, I'm not saying I didn't work my butt off to get there, but I also didn't have the top guys or anyone really serious come play in my sandbox on a regular basis.
We have 10 events in the year, and you only need 6 of them to qualify your points. Out of those 10 events I did 7 and of those 7 I think I only 'won' three times. The other 5 events I had people co-driving my car or I ran alone. On those ones where I had a co-driver, I was beat in my own car each time.
It's hard for me to accept anything that I really didn't 'win'. People have been saying "It's not YOUR fault that no one ran in your class, so take the win and enjoy it". Anyone that knows me knows that I'm not like that.
So.. in a few months a new season will start and I WILL have someone to run against, as one of our really good drivers has bought himself a Z06 as well and we'll see just what I can do with that.
Back to the weekend. As I said, Kim will be in town. This is her 1st visit here since October and I'm hoping that it will end better than the last time. I got very spoiled earlier in the month since we got 1 whole week together, and then 4 days later had a weekend together. Now it's been 2 weeks and it feels like forever. Yeah, I know that's kinda sappy and all that, but it's true. I have NO problem admitting that. I miss her. I can tell that there's some strain on her end with the distance still being there, and I understand it. I wish I knew a quick and easy fix for it, but right now we're just trying to get thru each period and deal with things as they come up.
Staying the course is never easy. Standing firm to what you want and need even if it means that things get tough now and then is harder. Giving in to the quick and easy solutions aren't hard even if you know that you want more for yourself. We all get tempted by that, but it's the faith that we all have within to be there each day and stick it out is what proves our feelings, our committment and our love to someone. It would be easy to write things off and say "That's enough, I'll just find someone closer", someone that might be more convenient or easy, but it woudln't be the same. It wouldn't be "the one" I want and that grass isn't ever any greener it's just grass from a different yard.
Long distances suck. They test your inner strength, your will power and your faith in someone else. It takes ALOT of trust to love someone from 500 miles away. Trust that they are being true, trust that they mean what they say and that they aren't just using you. When you are with someone that shares your same area code, it's easy to keep those things in check. When you aren't.... it's all about trust.
I trust Kim with my life. My Heart. My Soul. Never before have I had that ability, or the opportunity to be that way with someone.
Life is uncertain ( I've said that before for those of you keeping track on the scorecards ) and maybe tomorrow something will happen that will change everything. Maybe 5 years from now, things will be the same. We just have no idea, and the more we try to control, sway, or bury our head in the sand about that fact, the worse off we all are. I don't know where 'we' will be a month from now, or a year, or 5 years. I CAN tell you where I want to be... and that should be pretty obvious by now.
1) All the activity in Daytona means 1 thing... racing is back again! Between the Motorcycles, NASCAR's various events and the 24 Hours of Daytona, there's just about any kind of racing for someone to enjoy. This weekend is the 24hr race, and to ME, that means it won't be long until we all get to go back outside and play.
2) This is 2010, but the local region's end-of-season awards banquet is coming up this weekend. Kim is coming into town to join me in the festivities. This is the 1st time I'm attending where I'm actually going to be recieving something. I won a tropy for my class this year. I even came very close to being in the top 10 in the points chase ( ended up in 13th ).
This is all very alien to me. I'm not one that really has ever pushed to be good at anything outside of work. I've tried to NOT marginalize my efforts and enjoy what few accolades or 'atta-boys' that I've gotten this past year. To me,a win isn't a win just because you took 1st. If you take 1st and there's little or NO competition to run against, there's not much to say "yay me" about. Now, I'm not saying I didn't work my butt off to get there, but I also didn't have the top guys or anyone really serious come play in my sandbox on a regular basis.
We have 10 events in the year, and you only need 6 of them to qualify your points. Out of those 10 events I did 7 and of those 7 I think I only 'won' three times. The other 5 events I had people co-driving my car or I ran alone. On those ones where I had a co-driver, I was beat in my own car each time.
It's hard for me to accept anything that I really didn't 'win'. People have been saying "It's not YOUR fault that no one ran in your class, so take the win and enjoy it". Anyone that knows me knows that I'm not like that.
So.. in a few months a new season will start and I WILL have someone to run against, as one of our really good drivers has bought himself a Z06 as well and we'll see just what I can do with that.
Back to the weekend. As I said, Kim will be in town. This is her 1st visit here since October and I'm hoping that it will end better than the last time. I got very spoiled earlier in the month since we got 1 whole week together, and then 4 days later had a weekend together. Now it's been 2 weeks and it feels like forever. Yeah, I know that's kinda sappy and all that, but it's true. I have NO problem admitting that. I miss her. I can tell that there's some strain on her end with the distance still being there, and I understand it. I wish I knew a quick and easy fix for it, but right now we're just trying to get thru each period and deal with things as they come up.
Staying the course is never easy. Standing firm to what you want and need even if it means that things get tough now and then is harder. Giving in to the quick and easy solutions aren't hard even if you know that you want more for yourself. We all get tempted by that, but it's the faith that we all have within to be there each day and stick it out is what proves our feelings, our committment and our love to someone. It would be easy to write things off and say "That's enough, I'll just find someone closer", someone that might be more convenient or easy, but it woudln't be the same. It wouldn't be "the one" I want and that grass isn't ever any greener it's just grass from a different yard.
Long distances suck. They test your inner strength, your will power and your faith in someone else. It takes ALOT of trust to love someone from 500 miles away. Trust that they are being true, trust that they mean what they say and that they aren't just using you. When you are with someone that shares your same area code, it's easy to keep those things in check. When you aren't.... it's all about trust.
I trust Kim with my life. My Heart. My Soul. Never before have I had that ability, or the opportunity to be that way with someone.
Life is uncertain ( I've said that before for those of you keeping track on the scorecards ) and maybe tomorrow something will happen that will change everything. Maybe 5 years from now, things will be the same. We just have no idea, and the more we try to control, sway, or bury our head in the sand about that fact, the worse off we all are. I don't know where 'we' will be a month from now, or a year, or 5 years. I CAN tell you where I want to be... and that should be pretty obvious by now.
Monday, January 18, 2010
Things don't always as planned, do they?
Well, it's been almost a month since I posted last. I had stated that I would give a best of 2009 or some sort of recap, but that has yet to happen. Many reasons came into play of the 'whys' and 'hows' of that came to be, but to be honest, By the end of the year my brain was kinda fried.
2009 was an incredible year for me and while it had it's ups and downs, it was overall one of the best, if not THE best year for me. Kim and I had our share of problems, just as any relationship does, and even in the darkest moments, I kept faith that things would work themselves out. Even if things hadn't gone the way I hoped, I knew that somehow it would be what was best. In the end, here we are in 2010 and we're still together.
We started 2009 on a high note, and it carried thru most of the year that way. We spent some great weekends together and shared many great life experiences together. We had problems and tests just like any relationship does and thru it all, we found a way to make things work. I trust her with my life and while I'm sure she'd say "Thanks, no pressure there..." ( in a playful way, of course ) she knows that when I say that I mean it, and that there IS no pressure from me. I don't expect anything more than she can give when she can give it. That's what works for us, and I'm happy for it.
My racing took all kinds of twists and turns. This was the 1st year with the Corvette, and it was a STEEP learning curve. I THINK I managed to make the most of it, and while there was alot accomplished, there's still tons to learn. I had a great co-driver to push me plus I had some great 'special' co-drivers thru the season to sit in and not only give me a critique of the car's setup, but also of my driving and places to work on. I made some GREAT new friends and contacts thru the year as well. I hope that those continue to grow with time and become even better.
I finally was able to trust and push the car, and while sometimes the outcome wasn't great, I don't regret a minute of it.
Moving on to 2010 there was already big changes afoot.
With the car, I found that there would be no permanent co-driver this year, and with the economy the way it is, I won't be doing as many events as I'd like, but the truth is, I think I need to spend some time away more this year. I have spent the past 4 years now basically living at the tracks all over and I want to see more of the world.
That started shortly after the new year started. I went on my 1st cruise ever with Kim and her son. It was incredible. The weather wasn't as nice as we'd hoped for, but for ME I was happy that I was away from work, with no cell phone, no emails, and no outside world. We got to see some beautiful scenery and experience what life is like ( on a tame scale ) outside of the comfy US. We truly DO take for granted just how good we have it here. Simple things that we never think of are a big deal other places.
I had a great time not only because of where I was, but more importantly WHO I was with. Kim is a pro at cruises and it wouldn't have been as fun without her at my side. Most things in my life are that way... sure they are fun, but without her there to share it with me, it's just not the same.
Kim and I have a bit of an agreement... that I will try new foods as much as possible. I TRY to try 1 new thing when I visit her, but that doesn't always happen. I DID eat something that I never had before over the weekend. I had tried some that she had made a while back, and when we were out for a banquet for her Corvette club, I ate some more. It's baby steps, and while it's nothing earth-shattering of what I ate, it was a big deal to me.
2010 is all about me stepping outside of my comfort zone more. Life is too short.
I'm working on other aspects of me... like some of my insecurities about myself and life, and those will take some more time. Like most of us, I have my own issues that I need to work on. My mind plays games with me and makes things seem different than they really are. Most of that is due to some past life experiences and being hurt or 'taken for a ride' by less than honest people. It's hard to break those feelings. It only takes one bad thing to ruin you and 100 good ones to negate that one thing.
So much of what we allow to get under our skin and fester for no reason can easy be dissolved if we keep our minds and hearts clear and NOT read too much into things. Like just about anything else, if we're willing to TALK about something, 99% of the fears, concerns, problems, etc... can be worked out and made to make more sense. Doesn't always work, but it is better than letting that nagging thing in the back of your mind build into something so big and nasty, that one day you just can't 'deal with it' any longer and you let it come between the things you want in life.
It's not fair to yourself, or anyone else that you're around.
If anything has been learned in the 1st month of 2010, is that life is uncertain and anything can happen. Don't take it for granted and lay back thinking that things will take care of themselves.
So, moving on to the rest of 2010... may you all have great fortunes and don't squander the gift we all have... life. So far, it appears this is the only one we get, so make it count.
2009 was an incredible year for me and while it had it's ups and downs, it was overall one of the best, if not THE best year for me. Kim and I had our share of problems, just as any relationship does, and even in the darkest moments, I kept faith that things would work themselves out. Even if things hadn't gone the way I hoped, I knew that somehow it would be what was best. In the end, here we are in 2010 and we're still together.
We started 2009 on a high note, and it carried thru most of the year that way. We spent some great weekends together and shared many great life experiences together. We had problems and tests just like any relationship does and thru it all, we found a way to make things work. I trust her with my life and while I'm sure she'd say "Thanks, no pressure there..." ( in a playful way, of course ) she knows that when I say that I mean it, and that there IS no pressure from me. I don't expect anything more than she can give when she can give it. That's what works for us, and I'm happy for it.
My racing took all kinds of twists and turns. This was the 1st year with the Corvette, and it was a STEEP learning curve. I THINK I managed to make the most of it, and while there was alot accomplished, there's still tons to learn. I had a great co-driver to push me plus I had some great 'special' co-drivers thru the season to sit in and not only give me a critique of the car's setup, but also of my driving and places to work on. I made some GREAT new friends and contacts thru the year as well. I hope that those continue to grow with time and become even better.
I finally was able to trust and push the car, and while sometimes the outcome wasn't great, I don't regret a minute of it.
Moving on to 2010 there was already big changes afoot.
With the car, I found that there would be no permanent co-driver this year, and with the economy the way it is, I won't be doing as many events as I'd like, but the truth is, I think I need to spend some time away more this year. I have spent the past 4 years now basically living at the tracks all over and I want to see more of the world.
That started shortly after the new year started. I went on my 1st cruise ever with Kim and her son. It was incredible. The weather wasn't as nice as we'd hoped for, but for ME I was happy that I was away from work, with no cell phone, no emails, and no outside world. We got to see some beautiful scenery and experience what life is like ( on a tame scale ) outside of the comfy US. We truly DO take for granted just how good we have it here. Simple things that we never think of are a big deal other places.
I had a great time not only because of where I was, but more importantly WHO I was with. Kim is a pro at cruises and it wouldn't have been as fun without her at my side. Most things in my life are that way... sure they are fun, but without her there to share it with me, it's just not the same.
Kim and I have a bit of an agreement... that I will try new foods as much as possible. I TRY to try 1 new thing when I visit her, but that doesn't always happen. I DID eat something that I never had before over the weekend. I had tried some that she had made a while back, and when we were out for a banquet for her Corvette club, I ate some more. It's baby steps, and while it's nothing earth-shattering of what I ate, it was a big deal to me.
2010 is all about me stepping outside of my comfort zone more. Life is too short.
I'm working on other aspects of me... like some of my insecurities about myself and life, and those will take some more time. Like most of us, I have my own issues that I need to work on. My mind plays games with me and makes things seem different than they really are. Most of that is due to some past life experiences and being hurt or 'taken for a ride' by less than honest people. It's hard to break those feelings. It only takes one bad thing to ruin you and 100 good ones to negate that one thing.
So much of what we allow to get under our skin and fester for no reason can easy be dissolved if we keep our minds and hearts clear and NOT read too much into things. Like just about anything else, if we're willing to TALK about something, 99% of the fears, concerns, problems, etc... can be worked out and made to make more sense. Doesn't always work, but it is better than letting that nagging thing in the back of your mind build into something so big and nasty, that one day you just can't 'deal with it' any longer and you let it come between the things you want in life.
It's not fair to yourself, or anyone else that you're around.
If anything has been learned in the 1st month of 2010, is that life is uncertain and anything can happen. Don't take it for granted and lay back thinking that things will take care of themselves.
So, moving on to the rest of 2010... may you all have great fortunes and don't squander the gift we all have... life. So far, it appears this is the only one we get, so make it count.
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
The end is near.....
That's right... 2009 is almost done.
I've not posted much for me lacking the ability to put the words into some sort of order that would resemble some kind of arrangement that wouldn't sound confusing.
I'll be working on the "year in review" tonight and should have something posted. I hope.
I'll be going away next week, so I won't get around to much else, but should have some fun pics and stories to share.
I've not posted much for me lacking the ability to put the words into some sort of order that would resemble some kind of arrangement that wouldn't sound confusing.
I'll be working on the "year in review" tonight and should have something posted. I hope.
I'll be going away next week, so I won't get around to much else, but should have some fun pics and stories to share.
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Slacking on things
With the coming cold winter weather fast approaching we begin to slow things down, become less active. I've actually been busier than I expected. That means that it's only one reason why I've not posted in a while. Mostly though, I've just been lazy.
Since the last post I made my yearly trek to Bowling Green, KY to the National Corvette Museum. This year was the 1st time I got to take the Z06 to the museum for this fall trip. Also, this is the 1st time I've not stayed the weekend. I did a whopping 735 miles on the 1st day, leaving the house and heading to BG driving thru the night, arriving there @ 7 AM local time. I stayed a few hours, talking to a friend that works there, and then seeing the new changes there and then headed to Kim's house. I had some great backroads to explore on the way and it was amazing.
We spent the rest of the day together, having a nice Birthday dinner and then decorating her Christmas tree and watching a classic movie.
The next morning we did a bunch of fun activities that morning and then it was back on the road again. I had beautiful weather all weekend and it was a perfect end to a great driving season in the Vette. Making it special was seeing Kim 2 weekends in a row. We're trying to make it where we can see each other as much as possible and hopefully, it's working :)
The recent holiday weekend was a pleasant one, as I got to spend it with some great friends and have some great food to boot.
I have a busy couple weekends coming up before the holidays. The cruise is only 5 or 6 weeks away, and I still have alot ot get done. Passport is on it's way, snorkel mask is being ground for my perscription, and all I need now is more of a 'cool' wardrobe to go along with my new trip.
On top of all of this... I've had a resurgence of an old love... muscle cars, and model building.
I picked up a copy of "Muscle Car Review" magazine a couple weeks ago mainly because it had a beautiful 1970 Olds 442 on the cover. I remembered just how COOL those old cars are and miss hanging out in those circles. While the Covette guys are great, the muscle car guys are even more diverse and spread out. I also had a great refresher @ the Corvette museum about how cool model building can be. There was a cool display that was themed around Corvettes and a 'shop' that had various models built to look in various states of repair. Really was a great thing to see. Made me want to dive back in a bit over the winter in my 'free time' and have some fun.
Like I need another hobby....
Since the last post I made my yearly trek to Bowling Green, KY to the National Corvette Museum. This year was the 1st time I got to take the Z06 to the museum for this fall trip. Also, this is the 1st time I've not stayed the weekend. I did a whopping 735 miles on the 1st day, leaving the house and heading to BG driving thru the night, arriving there @ 7 AM local time. I stayed a few hours, talking to a friend that works there, and then seeing the new changes there and then headed to Kim's house. I had some great backroads to explore on the way and it was amazing.
We spent the rest of the day together, having a nice Birthday dinner and then decorating her Christmas tree and watching a classic movie.
The next morning we did a bunch of fun activities that morning and then it was back on the road again. I had beautiful weather all weekend and it was a perfect end to a great driving season in the Vette. Making it special was seeing Kim 2 weekends in a row. We're trying to make it where we can see each other as much as possible and hopefully, it's working :)
The recent holiday weekend was a pleasant one, as I got to spend it with some great friends and have some great food to boot.
I have a busy couple weekends coming up before the holidays. The cruise is only 5 or 6 weeks away, and I still have alot ot get done. Passport is on it's way, snorkel mask is being ground for my perscription, and all I need now is more of a 'cool' wardrobe to go along with my new trip.
On top of all of this... I've had a resurgence of an old love... muscle cars, and model building.
I picked up a copy of "Muscle Car Review" magazine a couple weeks ago mainly because it had a beautiful 1970 Olds 442 on the cover. I remembered just how COOL those old cars are and miss hanging out in those circles. While the Covette guys are great, the muscle car guys are even more diverse and spread out. I also had a great refresher @ the Corvette museum about how cool model building can be. There was a cool display that was themed around Corvettes and a 'shop' that had various models built to look in various states of repair. Really was a great thing to see. Made me want to dive back in a bit over the winter in my 'free time' and have some fun.
Like I need another hobby....
Thursday, November 19, 2009
What a difference a week makes
Well,
The past week has been a whirlwind of excitement and change here. Kim and I did a lot of talking and after everything that's gone on this past month, she decided that with ME is where she wants to be. I couldn't have been happier.
While we're still working out the little details of things, the big picture is looking good. I'm working getting things to where we can see each other every other weekend and now that I've gotten my passport applied for, she invited me to go along with her on a cruise after the 1st of the year. It will be my 1st time for alot of things... 1) first cruise 2) first time out of the country ( other than Canada when I was 13 ) 3) first time to try snorkeling
On top of all that... I've even tried to expand my food choices. Kinda. I know I'm a picky eater and that my food tastes have always been a big issue for dating and such. I'm trying to change that. Baby steps are the key with that for me.
The past week has been a whirlwind of excitement and change here. Kim and I did a lot of talking and after everything that's gone on this past month, she decided that with ME is where she wants to be. I couldn't have been happier.
While we're still working out the little details of things, the big picture is looking good. I'm working getting things to where we can see each other every other weekend and now that I've gotten my passport applied for, she invited me to go along with her on a cruise after the 1st of the year. It will be my 1st time for alot of things... 1) first cruise 2) first time out of the country ( other than Canada when I was 13 ) 3) first time to try snorkeling
On top of all that... I've even tried to expand my food choices. Kinda. I know I'm a picky eater and that my food tastes have always been a big issue for dating and such. I'm trying to change that. Baby steps are the key with that for me.
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
A new week
Well, I made it thru the weekend and it seems I'm still in one piece.
That was probably one of the roughest 3 days I've had in my memories. I spent the weekend trying to keep busy, and thru it all nothing worked. Everything I thought of reminded me of the very things I was trying to block out ( not forget ) and it all came to a head on Sunday when I took the Vette out for a drive.
I set the nav to a specific endpoint, but didn't follow its suggestions. When it told me a turn was coming, I'd look, and decide then if it was the right direction. In doing so, I found some incredible little back roads that wound thru farmlands and valleys and small towns in my area. I'd go 10-15 minutes before I'd see another car at times and only saw 1 car that had a light bar on the roof the whole trip that lasted 4+ hours.
The destination was a goal, but NOT the final outcome. It felt good to get the car out and drive without purpose or a time limit. What was normally a 45 minute drive turned into almost 2 hours. It gave me time to think, as I do some of my best thinking while I'm on a drive. I had the time to think about the choices I've made, the ones I want to make, and understanding not only the result of those choices, but the ramifications of them.
I ended up in Ohiophyle State park just past Frank Loyd Wright's Fallingwater masterpiece. I still have yet to go IN the place, but I've been on the grounds.
I spent about 2 hours walking around Ohiophyle, watching the rapids, the people kayaking, fishing and hiking thru the area. It's beautiful there any time of year but fall is the best even if the leaves were all but fallen by the time this weekend came. There are great trails to bike or walk that have some great scenery. There are all kinds of natural trails along the river to hike and get some excercise. I mainly just was hanging out taking it all in. Went to another area called "Cucumber Falls" and saw some great views there. The area has changed alot since I was a kid, but most of the BIG things haven't.
I took a different route home and found more great roads.
Thru it all... with all the intent of keeping things OUT of my mind, it just solidified my resolve and reminded me that teh passenger seat was empty, and that the person I wanted to share this all with was very far away ( further than usual ) and was doing the same as me in a way... and as it turned out, we were doing the same thing... wishing the other was there to share what they were experiencing. Our minds are WAY too much alike at times...
So... the week has started and while nothing's really "changed" I DO feel things are different, and that's not a bad thing. I don't know what the coming days,weeks or months have in store, but I'm not worried about that right now. I'm not going to rush things and either of us make hasty decisions. Yes, it's not easy... but nothing worth the struggle is ever easy. And I STILL know it's worth every minute of whatever I have to go thru.
Check back tonight for some pictures
That was probably one of the roughest 3 days I've had in my memories. I spent the weekend trying to keep busy, and thru it all nothing worked. Everything I thought of reminded me of the very things I was trying to block out ( not forget ) and it all came to a head on Sunday when I took the Vette out for a drive.
I set the nav to a specific endpoint, but didn't follow its suggestions. When it told me a turn was coming, I'd look, and decide then if it was the right direction. In doing so, I found some incredible little back roads that wound thru farmlands and valleys and small towns in my area. I'd go 10-15 minutes before I'd see another car at times and only saw 1 car that had a light bar on the roof the whole trip that lasted 4+ hours.
The destination was a goal, but NOT the final outcome. It felt good to get the car out and drive without purpose or a time limit. What was normally a 45 minute drive turned into almost 2 hours. It gave me time to think, as I do some of my best thinking while I'm on a drive. I had the time to think about the choices I've made, the ones I want to make, and understanding not only the result of those choices, but the ramifications of them.
I ended up in Ohiophyle State park just past Frank Loyd Wright's Fallingwater masterpiece. I still have yet to go IN the place, but I've been on the grounds.
I spent about 2 hours walking around Ohiophyle, watching the rapids, the people kayaking, fishing and hiking thru the area. It's beautiful there any time of year but fall is the best even if the leaves were all but fallen by the time this weekend came. There are great trails to bike or walk that have some great scenery. There are all kinds of natural trails along the river to hike and get some excercise. I mainly just was hanging out taking it all in. Went to another area called "Cucumber Falls" and saw some great views there. The area has changed alot since I was a kid, but most of the BIG things haven't.
I took a different route home and found more great roads.
Thru it all... with all the intent of keeping things OUT of my mind, it just solidified my resolve and reminded me that teh passenger seat was empty, and that the person I wanted to share this all with was very far away ( further than usual ) and was doing the same as me in a way... and as it turned out, we were doing the same thing... wishing the other was there to share what they were experiencing. Our minds are WAY too much alike at times...
So... the week has started and while nothing's really "changed" I DO feel things are different, and that's not a bad thing. I don't know what the coming days,weeks or months have in store, but I'm not worried about that right now. I'm not going to rush things and either of us make hasty decisions. Yes, it's not easy... but nothing worth the struggle is ever easy. And I STILL know it's worth every minute of whatever I have to go thru.
Check back tonight for some pictures
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