I've kinda had a one track mind lately, and for that I apologize.
So, in that theme, I'll add something I've not done for a while. I'm passionate about a few things and yes, cars are one of them. Something else is music. Now, my music doesn't really fit in with alot of popular opinions and tastes, and most of my friends can't take it. I've always listened to different things and these days it's kinda been on a more quiet note.
That's not to say it's easy listening, but compared to some of the stuff I listen to, it's quite tame.
My latest CD purchase ( you kids remember what those are right? ) is from a band I've been listening to for some time now. A band called
Porcupine Tree. They really aren't able to be locked into one style or the other, as each CD is a bit different than the last.
Their music is built around haunting, sometimes very graphic lyrics, sweeping changes of music rangin from atmospheric mood setting music to hard rock/metal riffs and Zappa style time signature changes.
With this new release
"The Incident", the band took more of a 'concept' approach and while sometimes the songs could've been delvoped further, they fit the piece and set the tone for the next part.
Dead center in the CD is probably one of the most relevant pieces for me that I've heard in years, called Time Flies. Without quoting the words, it's basically ( from my view at least ) all about looking back on your life and realizing that you rush so fast to grow up and get on with life, that when you're an adult, you find yourself looking back more and more at your youth ( or various points in your life ) and it feels like in a blink of an eye, you've spent the better part of your life waiting for something to happen. Waiting for things to come to you instead of going out and making life happen for you.
As we get older, we live with regret. We live with denial of those regrets ( sometimes ) and hope that if we ignore those things, that they'll go away, or not bother us.
Not taking that risk for that job that you wanted, but were afraid to fail.
Not telling that person what you really thought in fear of them being mad, sad, etc...
Letting good things in your life slip away due to insecurities, fear, pride or the worst thing... thinking that if you wait longer, something better might come along.
I think that in the grand scheme of things, I've gotten better at making life happen for myself. I've got a great job, a beautiful girlfriend that treats me far better than I feel I deserve, and I have a hobby that has opened my life up to so many new experiences, people, places and opportunities.
I need to get better, and time is short for us all.