I know I've not written in a while, but I've kinda been blank... almost a writer's block if you will...
Haven't given up on this, but haven't been too focused on this lately either.
Monday, January 26, 2009
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Post 2008 wrap up....
I am kinda taking a cue from a fellow blogger in starting of this post where I started...
I can't believe that I've been doing this for over 2 years now. The person I was then is someone I barely recognize now. I started this back at the end of 2006 as a way to flesh out the thoughts, frustrations and demons that I had within me and had no outlet to get things done. It was either THIS... or see a shrink.
Since then there's been many changes in my life.
2008 was probably one of the most amazing, roller-coaster ride, emotion filled years I've had in my life. It started on quite a low note and ended on one of the highest moments of my life. This past year has made me really re-evaluate what I have always thought I was as a person and refine it and let it evolve and roll with things as they came up. I was never that good at it in the past, and for whatever reason... I found a way to embrace change, uncertainty and the unknown future and deal with it.
My job seemed to solidify and smooth out to let me find my place and let alot of the BS that I have usually let get to me and undermine my work. I've had the good fortune of my job being very busy thru the year and while I worked ALOT of overtime thru the year, I always made time for myself between travelling for myself, for racing, and with friends.
I was able to develop my car and the nut behind the wheel that always gets loosened and thru the year became more focused and confident. That shown thru the events I drove at and the various cars that I had the privilage to be allowed to drive. By the end of the year, I was able to make improvments in how I was placing thru the ranks and my understanding of what I needed to do became more defined.
That led me to finally realize of one of my long-standing dreams... to finally own my own Corvette. I bought the spefic car I did solely based on using it for fun cruising, road trips and for autocrossing. Now, I have no excuse for placing bad in competition... if I don't do well, I did something wrong.
This leads me to the last, but certainly NOT least important thing this year. I'm sure any of you that have been following this blog this year have figured out that I met someone that means a great deal to me. She is probably THE best thing that has happened to me in more years than I can dare to count. She's given me the confidence in myself that I have never been able to find. Having someone that cares for you, believes in you and puts their trust in you is an incredible thing. I've always been used to being the strong one and being there when someone needs ME... and knowing that you have someone that you can lean on and share your thoughts and ideas and all the light and dark things in your life is an amazing thing.
Thru this year, we went from a casual aquaintence, to friend, to close friend and beyond... to someone I really don't want to think about having days in my life where she's not part of them. That's a thought that is both scary and freeing at the same time. I'm a better person because of her, and I hope I have been able to make a similar impact on her life as well.
So, with 2008 behind me and the new year well underway... I have HOPE... for the future, for my life, and for all that is good in it. I said good bye to 2008 with her at my side, and hello to 2009 the same way. I hope that it's a prelude of good things to come this year.
I hope you all are able to share those types of good things in your own lives.
I can't believe that I've been doing this for over 2 years now. The person I was then is someone I barely recognize now. I started this back at the end of 2006 as a way to flesh out the thoughts, frustrations and demons that I had within me and had no outlet to get things done. It was either THIS... or see a shrink.
Since then there's been many changes in my life.
2008 was probably one of the most amazing, roller-coaster ride, emotion filled years I've had in my life. It started on quite a low note and ended on one of the highest moments of my life. This past year has made me really re-evaluate what I have always thought I was as a person and refine it and let it evolve and roll with things as they came up. I was never that good at it in the past, and for whatever reason... I found a way to embrace change, uncertainty and the unknown future and deal with it.
My job seemed to solidify and smooth out to let me find my place and let alot of the BS that I have usually let get to me and undermine my work. I've had the good fortune of my job being very busy thru the year and while I worked ALOT of overtime thru the year, I always made time for myself between travelling for myself, for racing, and with friends.
I was able to develop my car and the nut behind the wheel that always gets loosened and thru the year became more focused and confident. That shown thru the events I drove at and the various cars that I had the privilage to be allowed to drive. By the end of the year, I was able to make improvments in how I was placing thru the ranks and my understanding of what I needed to do became more defined.
That led me to finally realize of one of my long-standing dreams... to finally own my own Corvette. I bought the spefic car I did solely based on using it for fun cruising, road trips and for autocrossing. Now, I have no excuse for placing bad in competition... if I don't do well, I did something wrong.
This leads me to the last, but certainly NOT least important thing this year. I'm sure any of you that have been following this blog this year have figured out that I met someone that means a great deal to me. She is probably THE best thing that has happened to me in more years than I can dare to count. She's given me the confidence in myself that I have never been able to find. Having someone that cares for you, believes in you and puts their trust in you is an incredible thing. I've always been used to being the strong one and being there when someone needs ME... and knowing that you have someone that you can lean on and share your thoughts and ideas and all the light and dark things in your life is an amazing thing.
Thru this year, we went from a casual aquaintence, to friend, to close friend and beyond... to someone I really don't want to think about having days in my life where she's not part of them. That's a thought that is both scary and freeing at the same time. I'm a better person because of her, and I hope I have been able to make a similar impact on her life as well.
So, with 2008 behind me and the new year well underway... I have HOPE... for the future, for my life, and for all that is good in it. I said good bye to 2008 with her at my side, and hello to 2009 the same way. I hope that it's a prelude of good things to come this year.
I hope you all are able to share those types of good things in your own lives.
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